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Such an ironic song it's great. [Sep. 3rd, 2007|08:39 pm]
[mood | happy]

With the worries that I'd give for her and she told the worst of me
My wanting to just hold her head in my arms and feel her breathe
No, I'm not going to give you want so if you please
The sin that shapes your voice carries, my ears, this new disease

Did somebody take your tongue?
In worries of the words that you couldn't say, that you couldn't save them from
But I don't want to sleep without, so I bid to you, goodnight,
Tonight, sleep tight, my love

The anxious through the calming storm, you'll sit as you pray for rain
I'll touch it if ask me to but how is up to you
No, I'm not going to let you get up if you struggle willingly
I'll savour all your form to show you how and where i bleed

Did somebody take your tongue?
In worries of the words that you couldn't say, that you wouldn't save them from
But I don't want to sleep without, so I bid to you, goodnight,
Tonight, sleep tight, my love

You were so well behaved
As you watched them make your way
A kiss for you engraved
You shift and stretch your legs
You were so well behaved
You were so well...
Who taught these tricks that make...you were so well behaved

If the world stops turning girl you better not stop when i say
And there was nothing you could do to cut me, cut me down
If the ground starts parting through the silence and the walk of the dead
Everything here dies alone...

But I'm not quite sure what you've been told...on labor day
Ooh, I'm not starting with you but the faint of heart
Were worries way
But I'm not quite sure what this unfolds...on labor day
Ooh, I'm not starting with you but the faint of heart

Did somebody take your tongue?
In worries of the words that you couldn't say, that you wouldn't save them from
But I don't want to sleep without so I bid to you, goodnight,
Tonight, sleep tight, my gun.
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Good yet crazy times ahead. [Aug. 27th, 2007|03:44 pm]
[mood | excited]
[music |National Product]

Well back in good ole Evansville. Bought my books today, crazy. There's no way I can carry all 5 of my books, plus notebooks in my backpack for Monday's and Friday's. So I guess those days I get to bolt back to my room and switch out books in my 10 minute break. Should be fun times...not. However as bad as this sounds, I'm really looking forward to this semester. Yeah it's going to be lots of hard work, but I know it'll be worth it.
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Dark nights [May. 31st, 2007|02:07 pm]
[mood | blank]

The night is where I hide myself
So as not to feel the isolation
That haunts me so, yeah
That haunts me so.

Wispy leaves run across my path
So as not to feel the pain
As I run, yeah
As I run.

Are you here to help me?
I thought not.
No one is here.
No one is here but me.

Wispy leaves and musky night
Surround myself, as I hide myself.

Cold leaves and dark night
Surround myself, as I hide myself.

Hide myself from isolation
Hide myself from the leaves and darkness
I hope you're here to help me.
But you're not, no you're not.
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(no subject) [Apr. 24th, 2007|02:35 pm]
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Stolen from a friend :) [Apr. 12th, 2007|07:43 pm]
We all have things about our friends that make us slightly envious.

Not in a bad way, but in a 'Wow! I wish I had that person's hair/eyes/money/relationship/toenails/whatever.'

So tell me what about me makes you envy me. . . then post this in your LJ and see what makes me envious of you.
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Being random [Mar. 26th, 2007|09:37 pm]
[mood | bored]

1. Someone knocks on your door at 2 a.m., who do you want it to be? No one preferably, haha.

2. Your boss tells you he/she will give you a $20 raise if you'll do
Haha it'd take more than $20

3. Describe yourself in a nutshell:
A determined, complex, caring person.

4. Ever seen a ghost?
Don't think so

5. Happy with your body?
I'm happy with it, just working to make it better :)

6. A reason you would move to Iceland:
I'd go for the scenery it's supposed to be really nice.

7. A place you've lived that you miss:
Hmm...I don't miss the suburbs, and I don't miss England at the moment, so I guess I don't miss my old homes
8. A job you would never do, no matter how much you were paid:
Work at anything garbage related, or that smelled so bad that I'd pass out.

9. A band/group you thought was cool when you were 13:
13 eh? Probably the Inner Circle, haha a cool reggae band, otherwise I just listened to classical music really.
10. You have a nightmare, who's the first person you think to call?
No one

11. Wanna have kids before you're 30?
I dunno, that's too far ahead.

13. Ever had a crush on one of your friend's parents?
Don't think so

14. Naughtiest thing you've done at work?
Hmm don't think I have, I'm pretty straight laced

15. Do you look more like your mom, or your dad?
Half and half, I think I'm a perfect blend.

16. Something you've always wanted to learn how to do:
To Fence

17. Still friends with your exes?
What are those?

19. Something you learned this year?
That re-entrant corners are bad, always include a fillet in your design dealing with corners.

20. What do you want for Christmas?
Christmas?!? That's too far away, haha. I do want some rollerblades for my b-day though.
21. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR TOENAILS?
Toenail color

22. Last person you talked with on the phone?
My dad
23. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING WITH A SKULL ON IT?
I don't think so

24. HAVE YOU TRAVELED TO EUROPE?
Yuppers twice now

25. NAME 4 PEOPLE YOU TRUST?
My sister, brother, Brandy, and Gavin

26. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The Wedding Planner, it was alright

27. LAST BOARD GAME YOU PLAYED?
I believe it was Life in England

30. LEATHER OR LACE?
Leather, I love the smell of leather

31. EVER HAD A BLACK EYE?
Nope don't think so

32. WHERE DO YOU RENT YOUR MOVIES?
I don't

33. HAVE YOU EVER WORN FISH NET STOCKINGS?
Not yet

34. Best Event Today?
Getting a B on my differential equations test

list THREE favorite colors.
Green, Red, and Blue, haha.

list TWO things you want to do before you die.
Go to China, and learn how to stunt drive

So Far in '07 I have:

been to school- yes

made a new friend- yes

fallen out of love- nope

done something you swore never to do- Don't think so

laughed until you cried- yes

went behind your parents back- nope

met someone who changed your life- that was last year, haha

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF
1. Bush? He confuses me lately, I am ready for a new president though, hopefully not Hilary.

2. Gay Marriage? Not really a supporter, doesn't mean I'm against gay's though, or unions

3. Lowering the drinking age? Why, so we can be idiots sooner?

4. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight

5. Do you have a crush?: Not at the moment

6. Who is the best hugger that you know? My brother, they're pretty crazy.

7. Do you believe in Love at first sight: It's not ruled out yet, haha.
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Tired but not [Feb. 28th, 2007|10:40 pm]
[mood | blah]
[music |Rise Against]

You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.

Not as easy as you might think.

1. Where is your cell phone? Desk

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope

3. Your hair? Blah

4. your mother? Curious

5. Your father? Content

6. Your favorite thing? Loyalty

7. Your dream last night? Fun

8. Your favorite drink? Lemonade

9. Your dream car? Priceless

10. The room you're in? Dorm

11. Your ex? Hmm?

12. Your fears? Failure

13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Happy

14. Who did you hang out with last night? Homework

15. What you're not good at? Crushes

16. Muffins? Blueberry

17. One of your wish list items? Rollerblades

18. Where you grew up? Illinois

19. The last thing you did? Proposal

20. What are you wearing? Germany

21. what aren't you wearing? Jewelry

22. Your pet(S)? Awesome

23. Your computer? Reliable

24. Your life? Good

25. Your mood? Eh

26. Missing? People

27. What are you thinking about right now? Bed?

28. Your car? Indy

29. Your work? Efficient

30. Your summer? Class

31. Your relationship status? Single

32. Your favorite color? Red

33. When is the last time you laughed? Afternoon

34. Last time you cried? Week

35. School? UE :)
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Stolen from Carly [Feb. 19th, 2007|02:08 pm]
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My day today [Feb. 15th, 2007|08:42 pm]
[mood | tired]
[music |Sherwood]

I survived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today was insane beyond belief. It all started at 7:15, when my alarm woke me from a beautiful dream :) Unwilling yet obediant I answer the beckoning call of my static filled alarm clock, with a flip of the switch. Next I quietly as possible get ready, eat my breakfast, and check my e-mail, before heading out on my conquest. As I put on my coat and throw stuff in my bag, I think "oh man this is gonna be a long day...", but I head out anyways. Interlacing between ice patches I reach my destination that is the Koch Center. Dragging my tired feet up the warm stairwell I head towards the ME 270 lab. It is here where I spend an hour and fifteen minutes working on Pro-E, the handy yet stubborn programming tool. After my said time, I look at the ticking clock, and realize yup it's Material Science time. It is in this wonderful class, where I find myself sternly paying attention one moment...while the next my thoughts are drifting along with my yawns. So then we finish learning about lattice lengths, and I head off to Aces to grab a sandwich. Next I scurry back to my room, to quickly put together my team's progress report for the week, realizing my taskbreakdown is too big to print out. Oh well, I e-mail it to Funk, before heading to Koch once more to do what...yeah you guessed it more Pro-E for another two and a half hours. Turns out I have a knack for making programs/equipment do impossible things. After this, with much exhaustion I head back to my room once more, but this time to work on Dynamics before my dreaded meeting with Dr. Ramers. I finish that, and compile my questions, then head out on my mission. Once again I'm in Koch, I climb those wonderful stairs, then round the corner to his office. Then like the scared chicken he is, Ramers sees me and says "Ah man..that's right" I just smirk. He knows I have come to conquer his unorganized mess of a project. This next hour I shall pass through, it was a boring meeting, but I came away successful and that's all that matters. That's the end of the main stress for the day. I shall just list the next events for I'm tired of writing in story format. I then had dinner, took a 10 minute nap, went to my team meeting, brainstormed some more with my amazing teammates, and now I'm here. The end, that was my crazy day and I survived!!!!
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(no subject) [Feb. 5th, 2007|07:41 pm]
[mood | tired]

I found this on a random site and really liked it, especially #9.

Promise Yourself--
1. To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
2. To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.
3. To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.
4. To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
5. To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.
6. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
7. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
8. To wear cheerful countenance at al times and give every living creature you meet a smile.
9. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
10. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit trouble.
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Weird... [Jan. 16th, 2007|07:16 pm]
[Current Location |My Desk]
[mood | pensive]
[music |The Fray]

So tonight I went to my first SWE(Society of Women Engineers) meeting, and man did that club grow. It went from probably 8 of us to like 20. A lot of women, haha, and a lot of women ego's at that. I can handle 8 women engineer's but that's pushing it. And for any women engineer's reading this out there, please don't be offended. I guess I have just gotten so used to working with so many male engineer's rather than females, that I'm beginning to feel like a fish out of water when I'm surrounded by many women engineers. And I probably feel that way, because that's how everyone else feels too. Haha I don't know. Or maybe I'm just afraid of the whole "woman power" thing, haha. I can thank Illini Girls State for that one. That was feminism at it's worst. I mean sure I'm a supporter of women going places, because I'm one of those...but in the meantime that doesn't mean you can put down your male colleagues. They're working just as hard as women do, they're will always be exceptions to both genders, but that's life. I know plenty of good guys out there, that's why I will never title myself as a feminist. Because that word is tainted now. It no longer stands for the coming together of women for the fight for better rights. But is now associated with man-haters, greedy and uncaring women; I want no part of that thanks! And I really don't know the point of this whole post, it kind of digressed....a lot, haha.
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Goals [Jan. 8th, 2007|09:56 pm]
[mood | optimistic]
[music |Straylight Run]

Well I'm proud to say that all my goals for this semester have been set, it's gonna be a busy one, haha. But I have a feeling that I'm going to be feeling great by the end:) This semester the hard work is going to pay off. The classes that I'm really looking forward to this semester are Circuits and Systems, Material Science, and Differential Equations. They're going to be challenging, but hopefully interesting. My blah classes are Dynamics and Exercise and Education. And my most time consumming is going to be Integrated Design. Yup long long, haha. That's it though, yay goals.
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(no subject) [Dec. 6th, 2006|09:48 am]
[mood | tired]
[music |30 Seconds to Mars]

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easier to identify.
Look me in the eye
And ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again
Yes you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday
If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.
We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how hard we try.
We all have someone that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.
If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.
Oh each other....
When everything
Else is gone.
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Excited [Nov. 29th, 2006|10:34 pm]
[mood | excited]

So I just got back from a really fun basketball game. It was the Harlaxton Lions last game of the season and it was my first away game. We first went to the wrong school, haha but then after some phone calling got to the right one. We played the Grantham Outlaws(they're alright), and it was just a fun game. All my buds got to play, and made some good plays at that. It just reaffirms my need to be social from time to time. So Carly if you're reading this, I'm gonna make that a goal for us, we're going to make at least one night a week, a fun night. We'll have to discuss what's fun exactly, but I'm sure we can come up with something. I remember hearing you tell me last year that you wanted to be more social, and well I didn't do a good job of doing that, but not this year. We're going to have a blast or at least try to, haha. So alright enough of future goals, haha. Just 18 more days till I'm home!!! And I just have finals left to do, I sure hope to god that my last two tests turned out alright, and that this semester ends right. Okeedokee, enough of my rambling, ciao!
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(no subject) [Oct. 10th, 2006|10:30 pm]
The Dirty Thirty... 30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself:

1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?
What relationship, haha?

2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
Thursday before my Edinburgh trip, yay for fun facts.


3. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
At Breakfast, getting ready to go to psych

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Uploading pictures of my trip to Liverpool/manchester

5. Are you any good at math?
I like to think I'm alright. What's the differential equation of F(x,y)= x^2 + y^2?


6. Your prom night?
1st one- blah, just glad everything went smoothly

2nd one- pretty darn awesome!!! That's what you get when you wear hot pink feather boas and hairpieces.

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
I believe Louis the XVI...


8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?
nope


9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
Not at the moment, I just know the Lostprophets are pretty awesome, but I can't think of the words.

10. Last thing received in the mail?
An invoice from the school for going to Newton's house on a field trip.

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
Water.....water....and hot chocolate.

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?
When the person doesn't answer the phone, but I hate answering machines


13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
To a bunch of bands at Warped tour this summer!!!! Amazing :)

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Nope, I draw geometric figures.

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
None, I've had wisdoms pulled and some fillings, but nothing painful.


16. What is out your back door?
My backyard at home.


17. Any plans for tonight?
Finish this up and study for british studies quiz.


18. Do you like the ocean?
I like to look at it....but I don't really like to swim in it.

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinda of popcorn?
My family has, fun times there, I love popcorn.


20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
Yes on a school field trip, and I can't remember the name of it.

21. What's on your desk right now?
Books, books, papers, backpack, lots of stuff!

22. Something you are excited about?
Going to Germany...and coming home in Decemeber!!!


23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
NONE, I dislike JELLO with a PASSION


24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
Nope


25. Describe your keychain:
Student I.D., room number, key to the room, F.O.B., and Mailbox key.


26. Where do you keep your change?
everywhere.


27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
Monday, my British studies class, I gave a 20min presentation in 10min, haha it was information overload to my audience

28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
Peacoat!!!

29. What was the weather like on your graduation?
Yes Brandy it was sunny, then by the time we left it was dark and muggy.

30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Closed at school, open at home.
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Waiting [Jul. 31st, 2006|07:01 pm]
[mood | peaceful]
[music |Paramore]

This is a song I've written, still needs music, but what can ya do?

What are we waiting for?
The opportunities are boundless.

Whom are we waiting for?
Could it be forgiveness?

Our past still haunts us
With our many pains and joys.

Is it that we're afraid to let go?
What is it that we're waiting for?
Is it that we're afraid to move on?
Whom are we fighting for?

Confusion, doubt, and unreliable hope.
Slowly creeping in.
Happiness, joy, and good fortune
Seem to be far away.

I don't know what I'm waiting for,
perhaps one day it'll click.
I don't know whom I'm waiting for,
perhaps one day you'll appear.

I know the past is done and gone and
That it's time to move on.
Whom is it that we're waiting for?
I'll leave it up to fate, for me to find out.
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Whoo hoo [May. 30th, 2006|09:24 am]
[Current Location |The mother's office]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |No music, just the sound of a ceiling fan]

So things in my life have been going pretty well lately, and I'd like for that to continue. I mean nothing extraordinary has happened, but nothing drastic either has. In general I'm happy. I'm still getting used to the "North", haha in terms of accents and even walking pace. I find myself practically speed walking just to catch up to my mom when running errands, and then having people repeat words, cuz I have misunderstand what they are saying. Hahaha silly southern Indiana, messing with my head. If that is one thing I miss about school, it'd be the southern Indiana accents, they are the coolest. Oh and as far as up here, the weather has been a little nuts this weekend, definitely HOT, and tempermental. Argh to having no A/C in the house. I start my summer job this thursday, bring on the work, cuz there's gonna be a lot of it. Basically I get to "tie up all the loose ends", and get things organized for this business, and maybe even tap into my visualbasic.net skills(yeah that'll be interesting...). So the thing I'm looking forward to the most this summer, is the Warped Tour concert in Chicago in July, that is going to be amazing!!! Just bought the tickets today :) And for those of you who don't know about this concert, it's basically a bunch of awesome punk bands playing throughout the day, it's gonna be insane. Whoo hoo!!! Well I think I have rambled enough for now, so adios!
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Yayayaya [May. 21st, 2006|05:48 pm]
[mood | happy]

Yay!!! I smell like horses and dirt, it's been a very long time since I've smelt this way. Haha this probably sounds like the most odd post ever, but hey it's all about the nostalgia. So today I had to work at my club's horse show (didn't show, cuz the horse wasn't ready), and it was a lot of fun. I kind of miss the whole showing atmosphere and am thinking about getting my horse back into showing condition by the next show date (my b-day). I have to finish breaking the thing, all he can do is walk and trot, I must get him to canter by the end of the summer otherwise I'm probably doomed(haha not really). So yup yup that was a blast. Oooo you know what also was a blast? Going to graduation the other night, it was a ton of fun catching up with everyone. However it did remind me of my all my reunion duties that I've been assigned with my president title. Oh well, that shouldn't be too hard either. Well now I must go, yay for fun days, and I'll be back soon.
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Almost done [May. 9th, 2006|08:26 pm]
[mood | okay]
[music |Armor for Sleep]

Well I'm almost finished with packing, I have a feeling that move out will be quick tomorrow, *knocks on wood*. Haha so that means my family and I will probably be waiting around campus and Evansville to checkout, but oh well better safe than sorry. It's amazing how many books I have....there's quite a few. And I figure it's pointless selling them back. Perhaps in 20yrs they'll be considered antiques. I'd make more money on them then, than now. And suprisingly I'm not real sad to leave. I thought I'd miss people more, but perhaps it just hasn't hit me yet that I'm leaving. Well enough rambling..I'm gonna mess around on the internet, before I have to go back to the old days of slow internet. Later journal.
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The end [May. 4th, 2006|04:17 pm]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |The Fray]

As of right now the the final days of my freshman year are coming to an end. And I can say that I have learned a ton, not just academically, but personally. It's tough learning tons of lessons in one year. I have learned certain limits, and learned that some areas have no limits, and I can push harder. The main thing that I still have to learn, is how to push myself academically, and still have fun. Sure I love learning, and my subjects are fascinating, but you can only think of learning as fun for a limited amount of time. I don't want to say goodbye to my new friends here, one imparticular. It's not the end of the world I know that, but still I'm gonna miss the southern charm(I don't care if it's only S. Indiana, it's still more south then N. Illinois). And I'd say there are two more big things I learned this year, about myself. 1)I'm a tad bit afraid in becoming more, I know I haven't reached my full potential yet, but that's a goal. 2)I'm afraid of letting people get close to me, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, just something I learned. Now you may be wondering why I'm writing all of this, well...for my WC final I have to write about how WC made me learn how little I know. Haha well I wouldn't limit those lessons just to WC. I just know that with what I learned this year, I can't wait to tackle next year. I sure hope it goes well, I believe it will. So yeah that's that for the most part. I'm gonna miss Evansville, but it will be nice to go north for a bit. Haha I've been noticing that my accent is getting kind of murky, hahaha. So yup, I'm done. Later journal, and good update.
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